no point to be so depressed
but i just feel i m suck on my road i have no mood to do anything positive, meaningful wasting time on stupid OC, eating on sofa with blanklet , doing meaningless stuff whole weekendS it will ruin my life soon. It's my own self issue, i need to walk through the stupid low EQ, the stupid humidity, occasional depression coz of spring agian? I hate March! as No extra Holiday at all! ****************************************************************************************** loving each others, supporting each others
it looks like perfect....why do i still think it's boring and lonely sometimes? so that must be my problem, right? Or anything still stuck here as an nightmare and make me upset? Romantic Nights in Euro with a guy? i admit it was un-remarkable and un-forgettable
i still think about it sometimes (especially in cold nights, the temperature reminds my skin about a short romantic story)
[Fancy Chapter(movie) in my 2x life, hehe] But it's all gone
i start over
and i find a guy like 100000000 x better than a geek/croward who confused me at the very 1st time and only made everything complicated
i feel angry everytime i think how foolish i m in your eye when you watch and let this happen
(i feel cool to say it! but no worry, i still like u as friend when thinking of the happy moments we had or the heavy bags you carried) It's now all History Present is a Gift! I m going to make a great great story with someone totally in love with me, meanwhile, i m totally in love with him
well, it means i have to forgive his plain life...forgive he keeps busy with his family...forgive his tennis...
boring dinning suggestions, un-fun hang out plan...seems not interested to go travelling.... (huh!?i wanna cry when i think of this)
It makes me feel alot better when writing this all out
